I CANNOT STAND BEING ALONE (poetry)

I know the Lord is always with me and I am never really alone

But Lord, sometimes I cannot stand being alone.

I know Lord you worki on me better when I am by myself

But Lord this moulding and shaping process can really get to me sometimes

I cannot stand being alone and everyone is out there with someone

My Lord I know this is my moments with you

I treasure them because I am taking on your image and not of the world

But Lord a call from my man to be, an email from my Spiritual sister,

An sms from my friend, a Facebook comment on my wall……..

Can really make this waiting moments less lonely and more bearable.

I cannot stand being alone especially when I don’t feel like doing anything

Dear Lord I know I must use such times to study your word, listen to your messages

I know these are moments I must be soaking myself in your presence more

Praising you and worshipping you more

Praying in the Spirit and interceding for others

But Lord You know….that is how I live daily

Tonight, I just need to hear another human voice’s apart from mom’s or dad’s.

Tonight I want someone to care and ask me how I feel

I feel good because I am blessed but I feel sad because I miss people

I feel blessed because I have so much but I feel …….

Like I am not so interesting

Like I am being avoided

Like I am being punished

Like I am needy

Needy?

That’s the word of the world my Lord

I know I am not because I have all my needs met by you my Lord

Needy….

That’s the name men give to women when women give them attention

And all the above I feel is not real but from the liar in the world

Ok, back to my sadness

No Lord I am not really sad

I just feel mad

I know it’s a season that will pass

I know I will soon be with my man, my friends and everyone else

I will enjoy the “me-time” while it lasts

But Lord, I cannot stand being alone tonight