I CANNOT STAND BEING ALONE (poetry)

I know the Lord is always with me and I am never really alone

But Lord, sometimes I cannot stand being alone.

I know Lord you worki on me better when I am by myself

But Lord this moulding and shaping process can really get to me sometimes

I cannot stand being alone and everyone is out there with someone

My Lord I know this is my moments with you

I treasure them because I am taking on your image and not of the world

But Lord a call from my man to be, an email from my Spiritual sister,

An sms from my friend, a Facebook comment on my wall……..

Can really make this waiting moments less lonely and more bearable.

I cannot stand being alone especially when I don’t feel like doing anything

Dear Lord I know I must use such times to study your word, listen to your messages

I know these are moments I must be soaking myself in your presence more

Praising you and worshipping you more

Praying in the Spirit and interceding for others

But Lord You know….that is how I live daily

Tonight, I just need to hear another human voice’s apart from mom’s or dad’s.

Tonight I want someone to care and ask me how I feel

I feel good because I am blessed but I feel sad because I miss people

I feel blessed because I have so much but I feel …….

Like I am not so interesting

Like I am being avoided

Like I am being punished

Like I am needy

Needy?

That’s the word of the world my Lord

I know I am not because I have all my needs met by you my Lord

Needy….

That’s the name men give to women when women give them attention

And all the above I feel is not real but from the liar in the world

Ok, back to my sadness

No Lord I am not really sad

I just feel mad

I know it’s a season that will pass

I know I will soon be with my man, my friends and everyone else

I will enjoy the “me-time” while it lasts

But Lord, I cannot stand being alone tonight

Love is Born- I am Venusseed

I am Venusseed
One borne out of sensuality and pleasure
My purpose here can become your treasure

I am Venusseed
The descendent of Uranus, whose pain brought my mother to life
Out of my grandmother, Gaia's anger
I am the seed of Venus, whose beauty and sensuality gave me life

I am not spoken much of yet it is me who brings about Peace
I am the seed planted to grow into love
I am the seed planted to dig into the depths of even hardened hearts

I am Venusseed
One who even makes strong men cry no matter how much they try
My cousin is Compassion and Understanding
My enemies are Jealousy and Envy whose purpose is to destroy

I am Venusseed
The one whose roots are not easily dug out
The one whose flowers cross pollinate other flowers

I was borne out of passion and sensuality
I was born to spread love everywhere
My roots and pollen can reach the deepest hardened hearts
With friends like Cupid my purpose is lightened

I am Venusseed
I am the seed of love
The root of passion
The stem of sensuality
The child of Aphrodite

I am Venusseed and borne to spread love
There is no boundries I don't cross
I see no colour, I count no age
I do not cause heartache I prevent it
I am not confusing at all
I just bring about Harmony
It is my enemies Hatred and Selfishness who come
with Misconception, Confusion and Misunderstanding

I am Venusseed, born to spread love
Allow me grow,allow me to shoot up
My roots are strong enough to keep families together in tough time
Once I am planted and grown my stem, leaves and flowers can bring positive change
Do not allow Anger and Frustration make you kill me
Allow me to grow, that way you will know
How love is born and yes it will show

I am Venusseed, the one borne by Venus,
Daughter of Uranus and Gaia